After that last post, things only went down hill instead of up. But I think hitting rock bottom, in a way I never have before scared me. Really scared me. I am so thankful I have a great group of friends and an awesome family. After an air clearing email or 2 it made me realise that, people who I thought I was close I am not, Sometimes it is interesting to see people in a way you haven't before. It's made me a little more wary to rely on others; I know who I can rely on as they have been there for a long time and always will be. :)
In saying that though I am responsible for my own wellbeing and it made me realise that I have to be the one who makes the change and wants to make the change. So baby steps. I didn't want to go for the quick option of stronger meds. So I am starting off with going to a naturopath. More expensive but definitely the healthier option. From there I am going to consider maybe hypnotherapy or counselling to see if we can get to the root of the problem. I am really going to have to work on it and it is going to be a hard road this I know for certain.

My gorgeous family spoiled me rotten for my birthday and my friends did too. The Mullum Mum's group of friends got together and bought me a Happy Birthday Rose called Samantha. :D Blessed to have these angels in my life. xx

Today is my gorgeous boy's 9th birthday. Where Oh Where has that time gone. He is so smoochy these days, but it's really nice. :D We are off to Rollerskating with him and some mates this afternoon, I gave the beyblade party a miss, I did attempt a cake though, not that it really looks like it should, he loves it so that is the main thing.

Hopefully the next post will be full of nothing but positives.

xx