hmmm

There is alot of truth in that song ...
Life is a roller coaster .... I am on a huge roller coaster ride at the moment and I just want to get off. Please :)

with sickness and tiredness and huge emotional black holes... but then there are the ups too and they are awesome while they last.

Working full time is great on the hip pocket but not so good on the emotional state. It's really hard as all my close friends see each other on pretty much a daily basis. I guess I really don't feel like I fit so well anymore. They don't make me feel that way at all when they have get togethers outside work hours. I guess it is envy and a touch of that wasted emotion jealousy on my behalf. I need to move on from that emotion and just start having fun and living my life instead of just existing ... which is how I feel at the moment.

I have decided that I want to learn to ride a horse. I had ridden a few times on a friends horse when I was younger. But I think i would love to learn properly so I can enjoy the freedom of being out in the air without mechanical/technical things around me.

I am thinking about other goals I want to achieve too... I guess a little like a bucket list.

I have fnished my assignment at work in time for the next lesson this week :) I have also finished editing photos yay!! 2 more things I can cross of my have to do list :)

Can't believe it's may now and I have a 9 year old party to plan.... beyblade party ... any suggestions?