Intention Inspired - Day 1

TODAY'S WORDS OF AFFIRMATION

I am inspired because I can feel a flame inside me pulling me to create more and live life more fully. In any given moment I have the choice to push through resistance, be brave, and fuel that inspiration into courageous action.

"From a tiny spark may burst a mighty flame."

- DANTE ALIGHIERI

What was the seed that inspired you to start this 30-day challenge?

I saw Intention Inspired advertised on Facebook. Occasionally I will stop and look into the ad further especially as it is free. Anything that will help me to stay positive and give me daily reminders to be grateful for what I have. They other reason is to help me be a little more organised and motivated. Building a daily routine is sure to help. https://intentioninspired.com/blog

Study

New unit has started.  Text and Culture. Oh how very exciting. haha

Some units I really don't get, this I think might be one of them. Who knows though I might change my mind.

On other news - ZOMG! I found out today that there is a 'convention' for book lovers/ fans - Fictionally yours. But tickets were sold out long ago. It's like OZ Comicon where they have a great line up of authors that you can meet. eyes open for next year I think.

I am thinking that I might need to take up the suggestion I was given by a librarian a few months ago and submit my resume to the local libraries. She mentioned that she has never gained a degree, but has worked at the library now for about 15 years. She started as a casual picking up the occasional shift. *things to ponder*

I have been sick this week, a cold that just keeps on keeping on. But it has given me an excuse to go to bed early most nights and curl up with a book!! :)

The gym has been a non starter this week. But all going well I will be back onto it come Monday, provided I continue to improve.

Television shows that I am loving at the moment - Suits, great show that really sucks you in. Invested in the characters. It's great escapism, Mike finds himself employed as a lawyer by sheer accident. While he has all the skills and knowledge of a lawyer, he doesn't have the degree, Harvey hires him anyway and he becomes an important and successful part of the firm before the partners begin to find out. Like anything it all eventually comes crashing down, but the rise and fall make for a good story.
Heartland - Stemming from a young adult book series about a girl who many call a horse whisperer, Amy lost her mother on a stormy night while they were trying to save an abused horse. The series follows Amy and her family through the ups and downs of running a ranch, saving abandoned and abused horses and helping owners with their training or problem horses.

There are more, but these are the main two at the moment.

Until next time
Ciao xx

Weight Loss, Work and Sleep

ok the weightloss, 7kgs down in about 8 weeks, not bad, really hard work, but not bad. I need to get my mindset right and realise this is a lifestyle change and not a season of eating better. I am doing this for myself, to get better and be healthier. I look at other people (first thing I am doing wrong) and think wow, they can eat whatever they want and it doesn't affect them in the slightest. I eat one thing wrong and boom there is another kilo on my stomach. Wrong attitude. Wrong mindset. I need this to change, going to the gym is becoming a habit and one that I am enjoying. It helps the mindset as well. So this is a big positive, however while I was hoping it would help me sleep better, it's not. I go to bed regular time every night, fall asleep easily, *bing* 2am I am wide awake, brain switched on an it won't shut up. Everything goes around and around, why did she say that, maybe I am not good enough, who does she want to replace me. Do you remember back in high school when.... what about the time you.... what the hell was I thinking when.... etc etc etc. My doctor has prescribed me melatonin tablets to try and help with the sleeping. She also suggested a 'worry' diary near my bed, so when I wake up, write everything going on in my head in the diary so it is out. Deal with it later. This is probably a good option for me.

So here is to a better sleep regime and less tiredness :)

Work, hmmm, well new person to be starting soon. Mariella leaving, not sure if this is a good or bad thing. Kathy once again mentioning that I am not consistent with the way I am expressing myself in the office. I think it is affected by my tiredness too. I need to put the staff first above my work. This is fine, but not sure about how it goes with not getting my work done. Yes I get flustered when I have a lot on my plate. Well I am not supposed to show this to the rest of the team. Interesting when today Kathy had something that she had to get done and she mentioned closing her door so she doesn't get interrupted. How is that different? I don't have a door I can close. Oh well, this is my burden to carry, another challenge to meet and defeat. I can do it. I need to not rely on Kathy and act as if she is not there even when she is. As she put it to me, I am not a fill in, this is my permanent role and I am being prepped to take over from her at some point.... I am thinking that they are looking at a specific timeline that has not been shared with me at this point.

OK so that is my blurt for today. See you soon
Sam

Easter 2017

Well another Easter pretty much done and dusted for another year.
We headed over to SA to visit the family, which was as crazy as always. 17 people in the one house is chaos, it's not for the whole weekend though so we can manage. Honestly I love seeing them all and watching how the 10 kids interact with each other. I get really worried about Dad though, for 65 he is a very old man. He is more like an 85 year old. Very unsteady on his feet, shakes a lot and sleeps most of the day. He makes some really scary noises when he sleeps too, maybe it's just dreams, I don't know. But his memory is getting worse and I think he makes up stories at times too. But at least he is trying to have conversations, albeit very slow and slightly slurred. Mum does such as great job looking after him and working full time as well. She is a saint I swear. :)
Speaking of the 10 kids, we got some comparison photos and wow the difference 2 years makes.

and this is the 5 girls oldest to youngest and the boys youngest to oldest.

As it was pointed out, I didn't get photos of the adults, but that will be for next time :) 

The diet stayed mostly in place while I was there and I managed one day of exercise. It is just too hard when you are visiting away from home. I guess really it boils down to I didn't try hard enough. But back to the gym tomorrow and back on the wagon. I have decided that I am going to discuss the gastric surgery with my doctor and get all the details so that I can decided what I want to do.

So after a short 3 day visit with the family it was time to head back to good 'ol Melbourne. I thought it was clever coming home a day early, well... so did the rest of Victoria!! 

Home safe and sound after a long journey. Ready to climb into my comfy bed and fall into oblivion for awhile. 

Nighty night my friends

Sam

xx

Say What?

Wow, once again it's been awhile. Sian started high school this year. So now they are both there! I am feeling a tad on the old side and a little like a car that has reached the mark where everything needs to be reconditioned.

The last 2 years. Hmmm, diabetes when a little haywire and I started oral medication to help this settle. I had half my thyroid removed due to a big lump that was pressing on my esophagus, thankfully it was benign. I had a lump on my spleen looked into very thoroughly, thankfully it was a cyst and has since disappeared. Now it's my liver's turn, no lump but it's very fatty and is at the point of fix it or end up with cirrhosis of the liver which is non reversible. The doctor has put forward that we look into gastric surgery to help me lose the weight. I have taken time to try and lose the weight and think about the options. I have lost 6kgs. I am finding it really hard though as I don't time manage well enough to pre prepare meals. Working full time and leading a busy life doesn't help. I guess I need to take a step back from other things and concentrate more on my health, easier said than done with me. Totally self inflicted, no sympathy needed, I need to get my poop together that is all there is to it.

On the other side of the fence, I am now studying part time to become a librarian, yay, this has been something I have always wanted to do but thought it was too hard and pushed it aside. I have bitten the bullet and taken it on through Open Universities Australia. Mainly thorough Curtin University in WA. I am still working away at my normal place, 7 years this year and the itch has been in place for awhile. I am officially being trained to step up into the managers role. I am not sure if I am loving this or not, loving the extra learning and workload. Not loving all the emotional junk that comes with it, I take too much emotion onboard from others, something I need to let go of or protect myself from. I am getting there, but it is a long process. I start mentoring a student as of May 1st, I am looking forward to this opportunity. It's an 18 week program where I chat for 1 hour once a week to a year 9/10/11 student about school and career options, giving them another person to listen to them and their ideas. I think the trick is not getting attached though. It is all purely online and we are not allowed to give out any details that could enable the student to find us in the real world, this is for their safety and ours too. The Smith Family are a fantastic organisation who really aim to help the underprivileged to be able to stick with their education through many avenues of support. This is just one of the ways.
I have been trying really hard to keep up the exercise at the gym and have met some great girls, through the 12 week challenge. Only 4 weeks to go until it's over, however it has given me a new perspective on keeping fit and I really need to try and keep the motivation going when it's over.

Well that is the update for the time being, let's see how up to date I can keep this blog this time around.
Ciao
Sam

So once again life is flying by.

Diabetes is under control Yay! Weight is no so great Boo :(

I have been seeing the naturopath again and she has helped immensely. I am feeling great.

Work ...hmmm, some people just don't like me and I am learning to say that is ok. Her/ their problem. It only makes it worse that I am 2IC though and anything I say and do is wrong (apparently) But my manager keeps telling me she believes in me and I was put in this role for a reason.

I am trying hard to keep my spirits up and keep on top of the housework as much as a full time working mother can.

Brad starts high school in 6 months eeek. A little overwhelming for me but we will manage. He is getting independent and I am very proud of how he is maturing into a reliable young man (most of the time)

Feburary already

They keep going quicker.
January was pretty uneventful. This month is ramping up with sport and dance again and of course school going back. I am back to 5 full days a week. I need to win the lottery so I can go part time :)

I have been reading like a mad woman and really enjoying it. I lost touch with alot of my favourite things last year and I think it's time I got back to it.

The heat this summer took awhile to get hear but has hit with a vengeance with a week here and there of 40+ degrees.

We took a walk through Sherbrook forest which was fantastic and I plan on doing it again with the kids.